grotesque

My own past trauma keeps drifting up from the murky depths. More than usual, I should add.

Baggage I might unpack another day.

Not much of a surprise that is happening to me right now with the pigs in the news being exposed for what they are.

I'm also not surprised that the 1% of the 1% are the sick disgusting pigs that they are. I'm horrified and disgusted by the extent of their depravity, but not surprised that they are capable of it.

The world is being controlled by stupid awful men. This is not a new thing. I used to mistakenly think that the ones who were not born into it like Xxxxxx X. Xxxxx got to their positions of power by intelligence and knowledge. The opposite is true more often than not. They got wealth and power not by what they have, but by lacking the things that make a person good. They exploited their way there. Who the fuck are those people anyway?

I would say that most have generational wealth that they were born into. A lot of the ones who were not born into it stole it. Most did nothing at all to earn it. Most of them lack the emotional or intellectual capacity to handle having that kind of life. No creativity, no imagination, no sense of humor. Really none of anything that makes a person a good person. They have no clue what it is like to live a normal life like the vast majority of the population.

The biggest problem is the really stupid ones like Xxxxxx X. Xxxxx. No matter how much power and wealth they have it is never enough. They never stop doing whatever they can to get more. He and his ass kissing thugs have control of the most powerful positions in the world, and it isn't enough for them.

The world is just a map, right? Old stupid man with bombs surrounded by ass kissing morons with power and guns. Lest We Forget, they say. They have forgotten. I've gotten off track.

With no intelligence, imagination or empathy they not only don't know what it is like to live a normal good life, they also are not even capable of trying to imagine it. They don't give a fuck about who or how many get crushed or destroyed. Even the planet is being destroyed by their insatiable desire for more wealth and more power. It all brings them zero sense of fulfillment, so they seek it in other ways. It has been manifesting as grotesque depravity. That too brings them nothing. They are human garbage with too much power and wealth. They are an unfillable dark void.

I think it would be a bad idea to attempt taking all the power away from them in an act of aggression. As tempting as it may seem, a violent uprising would fail. And not only that. I think that is exactly what they want. They have most of the wealth, and all the power and control of all the bombs.

The 99% are controlled by the 1%, but the 99 is not united. It is, and always has been our biggest downfall. It will never change. Too many would still support the pigs, and resist the change out of fear. Then there are many who will always be completely oblivious.

It likely needs to be a systematic slow burn instead of an intense fight. The erected patriarchy needs to fall, one limp tiny insecure penis at a time. That is the root of it all. It is not working, and it needs to be changed. It is well beyond being long overdue, and should have been changed many decades ago. Guess it does no good to dwell on all that should have been.

There is no easy solution to any of this, but I do know that we can't just stop it without having some kind of plan and new system to replace the broken one.

I personally would not be opposed at all to being governed worldwide by women. I've had the thought for many years. At the same time though I really don't believe that removing all men from positions of power is necessary to stop this fucking nonsense that everyone alive on the planet right now was born into. That would be similar to saying all women would be great at governance. Seeing the news these days shows that is obviously not true. Generally I feel that people in government need to understand the concept of positive things, like giving, empathy, and fairness, that could lead us to a better future, rather than this typical take, take, take by whatever means necessary, and whatever the consequences.

pedo-files

I had the misfortune of interacting with two pedophiles in my life when I was young. They were quite similar to each other. Uneducated, unhealthy, dirty old men. I mean dirty in the literal sense, unhygienic. I'm sure they didn't just become disgusting with aging. They just happened to be old when I was younger.

I admittedly don't remember much about the one from the village where I lived when I was a small child. I do recall that he used to give kids those caramel candies. The small cube shaped ones wrapped in clear plastic. There was a seemingly endless supply of them in his pocket. I think of him whenever I see those candies on shelves in stores. That, and he seemed very nice. Back then when I was a child I wouldn't have used the word creepy, but that is what his niceness was.

He didn't fuck me, or touch me or anything. Upon looking back though; I honestly think that I dodged a bullet there with him. I would have been a prime target to him. I was quiet and small. I trusted all adults, and no one ever educated me to look out for the bad ones. I'm sure that all made me a target. The only thing that spared me, I believe, was that the opportunity didn't present itself to him. One child, that I know of, wasn't so lucky.

He got caught. I can't say exactly when it happened, or any details, but I was old enough to know what it meant when I heard the news. I have no idea what happened to him after that. He vanished and so did the story. No one really talked about those things back in the late seventies, and into the eighties. At least not in front of the kids. I moved away not long after I turned twenty. He was old when I was a kid, so he has no doubt been dead for decades now. If I had to guess, I would imagine that there were likely other victims.

I worked in a factory with the other pedophile I knew for about ten years, before he retired. He had already been working there for a long time before I started in the late eighties. Like the other one, he would also be decades dead by now. How he got the job in that factory was always a mystery to me.

He was completely illiterate. He sweated pure garlic. Filthy green long sleeved one piece coveralls, and a dirty old ball cap on his bald head. Oily worn out old work boots. He might have even slept in those clothes. He didn't have any teeth. He used to brag to coworkers about picking up roadkill and making stew with it. He used to park, and sit in his rusty little white car near the dumpster behind the grocery store and wait for garbage to be tossed so he could go through it. He was a repulsive human being.

The story was that he had been caught molesting a child back in the fifties, and as punishment he was castrated. So I was told. No one ever gave me more details than that. I never asked. No reason at all to doubt it. He had an odd, high pitched voice. That, along with him having no teeth, made it very hard for me to understand what he was saying over the factory noise. I didn't have to interact with him much, but I dreaded it whenever it happened.

Other people that I worked with would tell me that he was a nice guy. I recall thinking, yeah right, but he's a pedophile. And not only that. He smells like death from fifteen feet away. He eats rodents that died on the highway in a hot puddle of their own guts and shit. Who the hell knows what he did behind closed doors if that was the common knowledge about him? Fuck. It did not matter to me if he was nice, or not nice. Now that I'm thinking about this, it occurs to me that the word pedophile wouldn't have been used. I would have been thinking of him as child molester. I don't know how people were able to just overlook the facts about him, and then interact with him as though nothing was amiss.

The last thing I heard about him was after he had retired. A coworker came to me and asked, did you hear? He got caught molesting a young girl. A child. The girl's father smashed his face in with a hammer. He nearly died. She was visibly upset when telling me. I was a young man, and was never able to get over the things I knew about him. I felt zero sympathy for him. I said, if that was my kid I would have used an axe instead of a hammer. She was quite shocked by me saying that. I found it weird that she felt bad for him. She never really talked to me again. Only when it became necessary for work things. Not long after that I got laid off, so the story ended. He would have spent the rest of his days with a smashed up face. I guess looking even more like the horror show that he was.

There was a time when I thought that success was something that could be measured by how much wealth, fame or power a person had acquired. It is a fucking lie. I'm sure that out there somewhere there are people who are wealthy, powerful or famous who could be defined as successful. The ones named in the pedo-files though, who have done horrific things, are failures, and beyond.

They are part of the small handful of our population who control nearly everything. Monsters in suits, flying around in jets, living in mansions, wallowing in excess. There is not much difference between them and road kill eating, illiterate, filthy small town pedophiles. They just happened to be dealt a lucky hand in life that gave them access to knowledge on how manipulate and exploit their way to wealth, power and fame. Their lifestyles may be vastly different from those two gross old pedophiles that I knew, but all of them are very stupid in similar ways. Worthless excuses for humans who don't give a fuck about how much pain and suffering they cause.

No matter how much they have, it will never be enough. No matter how dire the consequences of their activities, they will never stop. Even if it starts wars, or causes violence, terror and disease, famine, destroys lives, and on and on and on. Humanity is doing whatever the opposite of social evolution is. It is all their fault. They should all be stripped naked, castrated and be locked in a cage together. They could be tested and studied for science, like rats.

87.4%

The voters for the leadership review really think that PP is the best man for the job of Prime Minister!(?) I don't know. There is about forty million people in this country. I just don't believe that fucking guy is the best... for anything. He didn't even win his own seat last election. He was flown into the position by a big stork. He's been a cranky baby ever since arrival. It is all he knows how to do. He knows he won't win there the next election either, so now he's bounding off like a weasel to where he knows he will win.

I think instead of elections for Prime Minister in this country, they should turn the process into a television show similar to Hell's Kitchen. Canada's Next Prime Minister. Maybe we could even talk Gordon Ramsay into hosting it for us. PP would absolutely be the first one eliminated.

I can imagine it. PP, step forward. Take your jacket off. Unbelievable. I've never seen such incompetence. Maybe try getting a big boy job for awhile before trying out for Prime Minister of a country. Now piss off.

... or maybe it would need to be hosted by RuPaul !